JUST DO IT!!!!! (June 15th post)

Today I was thinking about what I should write about, then I remembered a story from last week.

Earlier this week I had walked into furniture before meeting a friend for a beer. I spoke with the owner Ron, I told him that I had just moved here and I was restarting. I told him I would like a couple quotes on a couch, mattress, a bed frame etc. As soon as I told him that, a family friend (Kim) walked in the door. Once she saw me she ran over and gave me a huge hug. She said "Finally you are back". I said "back?" with a puzzled look. I told her I had recently broken up with my fiancé and I was "restarting" my life. Kim looked at me with a puzzled look and said "You cannot restart what you have already begun". She said if you want to improve your life you have to keep moving forward. After this she went into more detail as to what she meant. I listened and agreed with Kim. I can’t restart but I can move forward.  That is what I am doing, moving forward.  I talked to Ron and told him I would come back when I was positive on what I wanted. I told him that I did not want to jump into something that I didn’t love. He gave me a book to look through and told me to come back in a couple days.

Today, after I left work I drove a couple blocks and stopped off at Ron’s furniture store. I walked inside with a huge smile on my face.  He greeted me with a smile and said do you know what you want? I said yes! I gave him the item number and he ran me a quote. The quote was $1800.00 for just the bed frame. I didn’t let that get me down. I then told him to run me a quote for a certain mattress. That was also $1800.00. I looked at Ron and said is there any way you will work with me on this? I know I get to have that bed and mattress within 90 days. Why 90 days? Because that is one of my other current goals I am going to win.  Ron looked at me and said, I can and will work with you. Ron told me that I can make payments on the set and that once I have 50% down he would order it for me. I said ok sounds great is there anything else you can do for me; I am going to be buying a couch and deep freeze from you with in the next 120 days. He looked at me ran the numbers and told me he could give me 45% off the retail price. He said that he would also deliver, set it up for free and loan me a metal bed frame until I could get my bed. It was a DEAL!

How did I do it you ask? Let me share.

About a week and a half ago I was talking to my good friend Brandon. After we had broken up I felt very lost and didn’t know where to turn. He advised me to follow my path. I told him that I had no idea what my path was. He told me to make a map to plan out the next couple months in my life ON PAPER. This sounded so dumb to me at the time; right now it is my saving grace. He talked about the goals that we can set for ourselves to give us that drive in the right direction. I listened even closer, I felt like a car with no steering wheel and I was driving straight down the highway to hell. He told me to sit down and write out my goals long term and short goals. Brandon then reminded me that it didn’t matter if I hit those goals, it mattered that I tried with everything I had. Later that night I sat down and thought up a couple goals. I penciled them in crossed some out and highlighted the others. Over the next few days I meditated about what I wanted to achieve. Here are a couple of them.

1.) Go to a job interview by June 8th. I was at my interview on June 8th at 10:00 am.

2.) Get a job by June 22nd. I was hired June 13th. I beat my goal by a week and a half!

3.) Actively look and do research to start school in the fall semester and finish my funding. I am currently looking at colleges offering online classes. I finished my funding 2 weeks ago.

4.) Buy a bed by September 7th. I will have my mattress, bed frame and CANOPY POSTS paid for by then.

5.) Look for a studio apartment or a Mother in law apartment by August 1st. Today my step dad and I looked at this beautiful home. It has a separate mother- in - law apartment. It includes a "dance studio" which is really a huge living space that connects to a back deck and overlooks a beautiful river. A master bed/bathroom, a full kitchen and dining area . It also includes a brand new hot tub! For this I made another goal for tomorrow. Talk to the owners and get all the information on it and schedule a walk through for this week.

6.) Buy a puppy. The only reason I have not put a date on this is because I want to be moved in, unpacked and ready for the responsibility. I do have my name down on a list for the next girl Teacup Yorkie Terrior to be born. I am so excited to meet her <3

There are 6 of my personal goals. At this point I am far ahead of my dates. I have pushed so hard and fought twice as much to make this happen... it is HAPPENING! I AM EXTATIC! I first off get to thank myself. If I didn’t take this leap of faith and work towards it every day I would not be where I am now. I get to thank Brandon for pushing me and holding that mirror up and telling me, look at what you can do. You are powerful and you can create anything you want!

The first step is to set your goals! I realize this is a snowball effect. My goals keep getting bigger and bigger and I reach a little bit higher every time. If I trip and fall and don’t hit my goal by my exact date, I am going to wrap my arms around myself and say "good job you are learning!!" I might not reach my dates every time, so what I am going to do is re-evaluate them and set a new date. In my eyes I didn’t fail, it’s not about having the material things. It is about learning and striving to make a change. I am learning and I am changing. This is the most precious gift I can give to myself.

In life we hear "follow your path". I always wondered "What is my path?" "Where am I going?" "Do I want to follow this?" Now realize I don’t want to follow "the path"; there is NO "PATH" in front of me. It is up to me to make my own path.  I left the same old path I was following a couple weeks ago, it was not my path. Now I am riding off into the sunset of the unknown. It is exhilarating, I am free falling and I love it! This quote connects to what I am feeling.

 “To be a star, you must shine your own light, follow your own path, and don't worry about the darkness, for that is when the stars shine brightest”.

That quote is very true. I dare you to jump into the unknown. It might be scary at first, it might not be and it is your choice. What I do know is, it is your choice to let your emotions control you, or you control your emotions. Jump! Get scared, angry or upset it makes you fight for what you want! Be happy, live, laugh and LOVE! It teaches you to appreciate every day you are on this beautiful journey. My journey is whatever I make and choose it to be. I see my goals right in front of me... I AM RUNNING TO THEM! We are all destined for greatness; the only one who holds you back is you. Let yourself go... be crazy and enjoy the ride, you are in for a great one!

Until tomorrow! Enjoy your night! I love you!

Day 4 of 30 Wahoo!

Love Jules